Find your way back to me, please.

bedtime story:

“So when people leave, I’ve learned the secret: let them. Because, most of the time, they have to.

Let them walk away and go places. Let them have adventures in the wild without you. Let them travel the world and explore life beyond a horizon that you exist in. And know, deep down, that heroes aren’t qualified by their capacity to stay but by their decision to return.”
—The Staying Philosophy, Isa Garcia

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The Crazies

If you find people who are as crazy as you, stick with that bunch.

The 5 Things You Will Discover in College

Oh college the time when everybody transforms into butterflies. You know how they say that college will make you realize many things? Well I’ve laid out 5 of the most important ones I have in encountered in my last 3 and a half years in it.

1. Grades don’t matter, but a degree does.

You may not see it now, but gradually you will. Please realize that no matter how you turn the world around, a degree would get you somewhere. Unless you’re Bill Gates or Mark Zuckerberg then I don’t doubt that you’ll be an overnight billionaire.

2. S T R E S S

You think you’ve been stressed in High School? Oh baby, you have NO IDEA what college will bring into your life. But keep in mind that STRESSED is DESSERTS backwards. Hoho #PigModeOn

3. There is a thing called “15 minute nap”

When you are stuck between catastrophic left and right cyclones of academic, co-extracurricular activities, social life, love life, art life and whatever-else life, trust me, sometimes coffee is not enough to wake you up. When you’re caught up in all of that, it’s inevitable to skip sleep but give your body what it needs and craves. The 15 minute nap was non-existent in high school and I was juggling A LOT of things. Just take that 15 minute powernap; little sleep is better than no sleep.

4. The Friends that you will keep forever

They say that friends are so hard to find in college, I doubt that because all it took me was opening the door of my classroom on my freshmen year and sitting next to a bunch of strangers and laughing like we have known each other all our lives.

5. Growing Up

This is by far, the scariest thing that I have encountered in college; the realization that I am no longer a kid.

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About Me

Hi! I’m Trish, a millennial, the daughter of 2 baby bombers. I’m a member of the Y generation. If you would ask, why The Inverted Trish? Simple, because our generation flipped every single hierarchy or triangle there is. My blog contains a variety of subjects, mostly those that are keeping me up at night. Enjoy!

If you have any questions feel free to contact me via Twitter @TheLegitTrish or Facebook Trish Perez, you can also email me at theinvertedtrish@gmail.com. 

The Epitome of Your Teenage Life

Have you ever found your twelve year old self so eager to enter your teen years and enjoy the privileges of; not being called a kid, starting your journey to the best years of your life, let alone start high school, attend proms and finally get a boyfriend. But how does it really feel? How does the highlight of your teenage life feel like?

Well, let me tell you how I felt when I entered a certain teen year

1. F I N A L L Y 13

Oh the glorious feeling of finally being a teen! WOOOO! HERE WE GO! It felt so amazing, like I am finally entering high school and base from what I have heard it will be the best part of your life. I have got to admit, it was awesome! It’s the stage of self-discovery; your hormones are flying left and right and that turns you into someone who makes terrible and fantastic mistakes.

2. [Bitter]Sweet 16

This was one of my painfully magnificent year, painful because I closed the “High School” chapter of my life and magnificent because I started the “College” chapter. This was the year that I was culture shocked with college. For me it was hard to transition from a private school to a state university, but hell with it. This was the year when I experienced a real heartbreak, I won a pageant at school, the partying epitome of my life. You will discover a lot of things because your list of “firsts” is not even done, all you have to do is wait. This year was an eye opener and believe me you will get to hear the “in the real world” a lot of fucking times, it’s annoying.

3. LEGALLY: 18

Honestly, this was the best year of my life so far. I felt like I was on top of the world and I’m serious about this. The power you have, the confidence now that you’re legal though with “great power comes great responsibility” as Spiderman said. Plus, you’re in your 2^nd year in college, you’re no longer naïve, you know how stuff works and all that.

4. Terribly 19

This is that dreaded year when you will slowly realize that you are growing up, as your teen days are numbered the feeling of responsibility will get heavier. You would feel like the weight of the world, the stars along with the sun and the moon is on your shoulders while desperately clinging on to your childhood because you’re not ready to move on with life. No matter how much you say that you are, you know that deep inside you want to go back to being a kid where all that matter was food, playing and not sleeping in the afternoon. When the only problem that you had was how you would cheat the afternoon nap because all you want to do was play. Sadly, you have to wrap your head around the fact that you’re no longer a kid, that life is no longer simple and the petty things doesn’t matter anymore because the world gets so complex when you get older because people makes it complicated.

“Just call me blessed when you can handle my worst.” – Nicky Minaj, Marilyn Monroe

“We tried. We cried. Got tired. Goodbye”

-Trish Perez

What You Never Heard Me Say

You said that you would stay with me; you said that you won’t walk away

You ignited a fire that will never burn out, you showed me love that was pure, so tender, so patient and so true

 

In the face of everybody that was against us, we stood by each other

Yes, there were times that I doubted because the distance is too great and not hearing from you makes it harder every day that you’re not here with me

But I always find a way back to you, to the promise that we kept, to the love that we so passionately shared

 

This love is stronger than Zeus, stronger than the war that you were in

This love is patient; something so real and great to fight for

This love is pure, understanding and so hard to let go of

 

So, why? Why do you choose to walk away now?

Yes, you’ve accepted that you were slowly dying and never have I ever heard you cry before

The moment when you said “Please, let me go” was the moment my heart shattered beyond repair

 

This heartbreak is so real, so unbelievable

One minute you were the one that I knew all this time and the other you showed me the side of you that was so vulnerable, so heroic, such a martyr

But in the process of you being that; you were hurting me.

 

The person you claimed to be the love of your life, your weakness and your strength

How can you let go of “The One”?

How can you move on from the love that is so strong that it can move mountains?

How can you dim the fire that is burning brighter than the sun?

The end of us is so clear, we both explained and both of us understood

Why are we are so accepting? Why are we so selfless when it comes to the ones we love?

How can I deny you what you are asking for when I heard you suffer, heard the machine beeping and heard the one who never shed a tear, cry?

Me, that is so stubborn and never listened to what you said, finally this time you made me do what you have been asking for

 

But in the process, I am going through antagonizing pain

I’m still hoping, praying and holding on to that 10% that you claim to be the rate that you will survive

Why? Because I love you and losing you is losing myself too.